Never Knowing What Life Is Going To Throw Your Way.Part One

All my life I was all ways told how I  am and how I need to work on my attitude and the way I carry myself. I've never imagined that I would be one of those kids who grows up with out their father in their life, and I'm of those kids.When I was the age of four-months old and on June 1,2001, my father committed suicide that morning.Me growing up with out my father is pretty hard because I'm the only boy in our house and its hard on me because I hold all the weight of all the girls in our house and I'm just one person doing all of this and I'm just me.My mom has tried her best to get through to me but shes a female and I'm a male so it's pretty hard on her trying to tell me stuff that's out there in the streets and people have told me that I need to stop trying to be hard and run the street because they that I'm not built for the streets, I'm built for the books and being a nerd or something smart, they say "oh,your book smart and your built to be in the books and in someones college or something, not the streets with gangs and stuff" and I tell them that I'm trying my best to be in someones college because I want to be successful like other people that have become successful and that have went to college.